LIVE HAPPILY :STAY STRONG (EP 1)

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 hi guys this blog is a bit special as it is entirely about me. I want to tell you all the main reason for starting this blog as well as a part of my life it is not possible for me to jot all details but i want to tell you about an important incident of my life that has shattered me or you could say this incident is the cause of everything that i have been going through .so this is a story of my early teen period , i was always pretty active in co  circular activities( don't ask me about studies though) i liked to go out with my friends and play till my mother had to drag me back to my home, anyways but not everyone in my neighborhood was my friend and there were times when i used to be bullied by them sadly the conditions were even worse at my school and didn't had many friends and soon because of sudden turn of events and condition that occurred at that  time i stopped going out and didn't play with anyone you can say that there was a small kind of WWE match in my neighbourhood  and hence i was not allowed to go out anymore and honestly i didn't even wanted to go and play with bunch of silly crocodiles.playing with them would always make me depressed i used to be there target everytime but i don't know why i never stopped going there maybe that fight was a signal that i should stop now anyways now i knew that there are no options left so ultimately  i would just stay in my home i was 11 at that time. 

Aaah so much trouble in my lifeu but it was fine as studies kept me busy scoring and everything was my main aim nothing else and I didn't even realize when I became a different personality who was literally like a zombie going after marks and all I was unnecessarily tensed about small things. like at that time our teachers used to give us these group projects that were obviously graded and we cant choose anyone on our own(it would be more difficult to do so as I had to first convince people to come to my group and I have zero social skills) the group selection was always roll no. wise and I always used to get those 4 teammates who are good for nothing let me call them parasites anyways I had to do all the work or had to suggest them everything just for getting a perfect 10on 10 over my report card.

these shouldn't be that stressful and I should not care about them this much but I could not stop taking that pressure and I had no idea that it would affect my health. I started to feel certain palpitations not very often but I would feel so twice or thrice in a week and ignored it because it seemed like not a big deal to me while I passed class 6 with beautiful colors (just kidding my result was good but not that much anyways I was happy with it) 

now there was a time when I had passed my 6grade and was eagerly waiting for the result so that i can be promoted to 7th grade and during that time we went to my grandma s house to spent the two weeks of free time I had 

that s when I felt palpitations again and they wouldn't stop this time I was so scared that I started crying not only me everyone around me was so scared and that was one day before my 7 grade had to start then I went for blood pressure and other kinds of check-up with my dad and everything was normal I was perfectly fine even personally i was just scared but everything else was okay.

after the small check, we came back to grandma s house and I was still feeling those palpitations and it felt like someone was playing a drum on my heart. soon time started to pass and no recovery my mother talked to my uncle who is a doctor and he calmed her down and told me to rest so I calmed a bit and finally after doing more tests and realizing that everything was normal I got a bit relaxed but the thing I was not confirmed about yet was why did I felt that way. the next day we all came back to our house and those palpitations stopped after two days of haunting me although the doctor asked me not to eat any chocolate or caffeinated drinks and also to stop eating oily food so I knew something was definitely off anyways my grade 7 started everything was back to normal but then in my summer break this thing happened again and every single thing that I did on the first time was repeated I did all the tests again and the result was also same everything was NORMAL like at this point I was sure that I am not okay so my parents took me to another doctor and ......................................................... I was finally diagnosed with thyroid. apparently, due to my lifestyle and habits, this condition got worse and I felt those palpitations I started taking the medications and never got those kinds of scary palpitations ever again 

I am currently doing great and I am perfectly FINE :) I just wanted to tell you all that always take your health seriously remember if you are alive then your dreams are alive to become successful first you need to be strong to build a mansion  the ground needs to be strong 

take care of everyone you should be healthy for yourself and your family.

lastly don't be tensed about small and absurd things like me and live your life happily 

byesssssssssss see you next time

by serenity startline



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