SECRET: MY REFLECTION

SECRET

 Hi, guys today I want to tell u something about my friend. I can't reveal her name so let's call her Mimi(secret) she is a bit lazy, funny, kind, sweet sometimes aggressive but I never realized that she was not the way I thought. she was lazy but it was not because she didn't want to do anything but whenever she would try to do something, every single time all her efforts went in vain. It was okay to be like this I mean everyone's not perfect she would think but she soon realized that people around her were better than her for some reason she lacked the basics. she was amazing in studies and all except dancing it's not that she didn't like it but because it seemed difficult. 

She was already at a stage where the only solution to all her problems was to give up. 

she couldn't believe how her life drastically changed day by day she became weaker one could never tell that from her face. I never thought that behind that beautiful smile of hers existed solitude, loneliness, and tears

she never told anyone about her pain , suffering, problems but always kept that smile glued to her face no one, not even her parents could realize this she started to have academic problems .she was ruining her present by thinking about her past and about those things that were waiting for her in future she was in pain I knew it. The sharp pain that I could sense from a long-distance I knew she was alone but I never helped her I never went to her and told her that it will be fine, you will be fine, I never hugged her and she never teared up in front of me I realized everything but did nothing. I know this fact will make you guys hate me, for not helping my friend. What do I take friendship as? but the thing is I didn't know where she was so how was I supposed to help her I knew everything about her every pain of hers was clear as glass in front of me I could hear her crying every night I could hear her talking to me but I just couldn't see her and was never able to talk to her . she had many friends and they all were able to see her and talk to her but only I was not able to do so but the difference between her friends and me  was that they never saw her crying or screaming on top of her lungs trying to calm herself they never saw her achievements and they never wiped her tears only I was able to wipe them yet could not see her I had the solutions of all her problems and I even told her but she never heard me she lost confidence in me I felt like I was always there for  her but why was I never able to help her I wanted to tell her that there are people in this world that love her, I wanted to tell to stop her journey as an introvert and live like a confident person i wanted to take away all her pain because i knew taking her pain wouldn't do any harm to me after all  at the end of the day her sorrow and my sorrow was one of the same things.

SO I let her for once, walk all alone.  Just this time I left her hand and let her try.

and I was right she learned everything that I wanted to tell her and she became the strongest person that I could have ever met in my life she fought everyone who stopped her journey she wanted to thank me but as she was never able to see me she was never able to thank me.

while she was walking alone I silently followed her though, I never helped her because I had already left her hand and just watched her complete journey while feeling the pain when she stepped on thorns and the uneven breathing when she would run trying to escape the place where I left her to suffer ALONE.

I AM SORRY I LEFT YOU, BUT I DID FOR YOUR OWN GOOD AND I AM HAPPY TO SEE THAT YOU BECAME A COSMOS FLOWER THAT BLOOMS EVERY YEAR.